The Second Step…

Ok…well I got the first post out of the way yesterday. So like Jay-Z says….we’re onto the next one! I spent the majority of the day doing absolutely NOTHING. I’m scared that I don’t have what it takes to self-motivate myself to becoming a BETTER ME. But what drives me is that I REFUSE TO GIVE UP.

Right now, NONE of my friends or family know that I’m writing this blog journal. And I plan to keep it that way for as long as I can. I don’t know if you’ve experienced this or not, but for me the moment I tell someone about my big plans for weight loss or career moves, I always find a way to self sabotage myself. I don’t know if it’s because knowing that others may be watching me fail or succeed creates too much pressure OR if it’s because I have to now be accountable to that person since they know my plans. 

So with this daily journal, I’m going to think differently by first being accountable to MYSELF. The way I hold my team members accountable for making sure the project gets done, is the same methodology that I’ll be applying to this BETTER ME PROJECT.


The First Step…

As most professionals will tell you, the path to recovery involves you taking the FIRST STEP. Well this is my first step. 

Today is Saturday, December 26, 2009. This is my very first post to this blog. I’ve never blog before, so I guess you can say that I’m a virgin that is on her way to getting her cherry popped. And just like a virgin, I’m excited about this journey of self discovery as I am scared about what comes along with this decision. As most of my “true” friends [all 10 of them], I’m very guarded with my feelings. I put on a front and act as if everything is ok….when essentially it is not. And truthfully, it hasn’t been ok for many years. So I’m using this forum as a means to help me become a BETTER ME.

I’m not quite sure I’m ready for everything that is going to come my way, but as always, I’m up for the challenge.